In my spiritual journal I like to take time every Sunday and write about where I am right then. Both physically and spiritually. I found this last week interesting and exciting in the progression and answers I have received that I want to blog about it!
Last Sunday March 20, 2011.....Where am I right now?
"Right now I am sitting in my Ivins college ward. I'm going to college at Dixie state and working at the Pizza Factory Express. I have a wonderful family, and a wonderful boyfriend (Jeff Hauck), and I feel really happy. BUT I know I have so much room for improvement. I make mistakes constantly, but I'm always trying to become better through my Savior. I need my Savior. I need help. I need strength, and humility more than ever. I want to make everyone happy but I feel like that is always going to be impossible.
Why can't what i want and what makes me happy line up with everything and everyone? I'm trying so hard and giving my best, but I know that I can always give more. I feel like I just need a life changing sign or miracle to know what it is I need to do or what direction I need to go. I've always heard that this stage of life was hard, but I NEVER anticipated it being this hard. In a few months I hope to be able to work towards living completely through the Spirit and be able to always recognize the spirit and follow it no matter what! I want to fully rely on the Spirit in every big or small decision I have to make. I want to be an expert at recognizing the prompting and feeling I feel from the Spirit. I know this is an ongoing goal, but...I will reach it!"
Today I feel like I received an answer to this entry in my journal! I'm taking a really special institute class that I take really seriously :) haha well today I was reading through the lesson for this next week and the Spirit testified to me that instead of praying for my load to be lighter and my burden to be lifted, I need to pray for strength. Instead of going into hard situations and thinking "woe is me," I need to ask for strength and make it through. I need to be as so many prophets and ask for strength to overcome, strength to endure, strength to do all things! I was also reminded that the Lord loves me so much and that he is always mindful of me. He wants me to enjoy this life and to reach my full potential and that only I will know that for myself, with His help! I think one of the most important things to remember in this life, is to ENJOY it! This life is my opportunity and privledge to show my love for my Savior and my Lord!
I am soo blessed.
You are the most beautiful thing I will ever see. In every way, you define beautiful.. Thank you for the incredible blessing and example you are to me! And you are a great institute president! You always bring such a strong and special, christlike spirit everywhere you go! I am soooooooooo thankful for you
ReplyDeleteCambria -
ReplyDeleteI am so proud to be your mother. You have always taught me to stay close to the Savior and pray always. I have always admired your testimony and love of the gospel and the knowledge that you have about the love that our savior has for you and that he knows, hears and loves you. I couldn't have asked for a greater example for my other children. Please know, as I sit hear and read your post, with tears streaming down my cheeks, that I love you more than you will ever know. I don't ever mean to hurt you, I also go by the spirit and I share with you exactly what I feel. I am so sorry if I hurt you in any way. You are one of my greatest joys and my best friend. All of my love, Your mother